Up until 2021, Sunday were for church. Sundays were God's day and that was that. There was no work. There was no drama. Nothing but leisure and rest. That was how things were. Christianity was a big part of my life, but I must admit that through my 30 something years in Christianity, I questioned alot. Why did we have to pay money to God in order to be blessed? Why can't we get help after we've paid our tithes and offering? Isn't God a loving God? Why does God hate Gay people? Why does he hate trans people? If he knew we were gonna be like this then why does he hate us? Why did he need to send his son to redeem us if He's the all powerful God? These were the questions I asked constantly. I asked and asked until I was forced to sit with my thoughts and critical thinking skills. As I write this post, I think back to the days of waking up early at 8am to bathe, eat breakfast, and get dressed so that we could head down to Switzer Mt. Zion Baptist, to hear the pastor, Rev Kerns, Rev. Scott, Rev. White, Rev. Tina, Or Rev. Pickens, depending on the era in which you attended. The choir would sing and depending on if she felt like it, the Holy Spirit would show up. It never failed that afterwards, the family would gather at Sunday dinner and discuss the latest church shenanigan, secret family tea, and the obviously queer family members. The essence of Grandma's cornread, cubed steak, and macaroni and cheese clings to Sunday's breath as if Grandma is still walking the earth. I can still hear Mattie Johnson & the Stars of Faith belting for us "to be Ready for the Lord is Coming Back!" Then as time went out Sunday's sounded like a good Pentecostal praise break. I was used to hearing my own voice sing Yahweh's praises as well as my hands commanding the piano's ivory keys to reach God's nostrils. Getting God's attention was fun until it wasn't. Since when did God require me to abide by an oppressive system that says I am not valid. Who says I have to abide by a rigid, unrealistic set of rules just to prove I'm a human. I had this knowledge and ability before I met Jesus. Why does his Daddy say what the fuck I do? Why do I have to kiss the Bishop's ass to find God? It took some time, but I finally found what God and Sunday mean. God is nothing more than a capitalistic venture, created to control those who refuse to critically think. While some can find solace in religion, I just can't. I have to make Sundays my own. Sunday still sounds like music, but a new rhythm and a new melody. Sunday smells like cannabis and good food. Sunday feels like liberty. Sunday feels like sleeping in. Sunday feels like being in the house naked all day. Sunday is what I determine it is. Sunday has become a new tradition. It is a welcomed change of pace. Sunday will always be precious to me. It's just according to MY will.

Woman pictured smoking...My current mood It's the last Sunday of 2025. This year has gone by fast as fuck! It seems like only yesterday I was bringing in the new year right after breaking my phone! The journey from January 2025 to December 2025 has been quick, fast, and in a hurry! Could it be that the events of 2025 had us in such a state that we forsook the essence of time? I'm not sure what happened with 2025, but such is life! No one could fully be prepared for the chaos, grief, and oppression that would come with this year. No One could prepare for the opportunities and silver linings of 2025. While I lost loved ones, experienced transitions, and grief, I've had some shining moments. While I've spent time mourning, I got to spend time with those I love. I got to see some of my favorite musical artists. The Giftst that made 2025 easier to bear were the visits with my best-friend twice this year and having a loving supporting partner. For me personally, 2025 sucked ass, but had some highlighting moments. I'm sure I'm going to look back and re-evaluate. Maybe this year is just one of those years of severe agony and inconvenience. I learned valuable lessons and ways to avoid disaster. However I understand that disaster can't always be avoided. We have to do all that we can to survive and move forward. Surviving and moving forward is a difficult task, but must and can be done. I am still in recovery from some of the toughest battles I've had to face. While in recovery from the previous battle I've had to fight new battles, but it's just another day in the hood. Thankfully recovering has brought rediscovery. This year brought a closer love with me and music. The time I spent in Christianity did a number on me and made me really fucking hate music. However, I have musical plans for 2026. Apart from music, I've rekindled my social media and blogging career. I'm not sure where it will take me, but I am approaching everything differently. Blogging was one of my favorite past times when I had Musique's Poetry. Although I had to end my blogging career due to life, I remained active on social media and in adult content as much as possible. This has been a positive and necessary outlet for me. While I love making sexual content, I do it for fun and not necessarily as a business. Although I am not a popular entertainer, I still put my best foot forward. You never know what opportunities arise. I used to afraid of doing porn in my full confidence, but I no longer have that fear. I decided in 2021, that it was necessary for me to do me and forget about religion and others' witless judgement. God and I had a battle of the wits an let's say my critical thinking prevailed. I am no longer religious and my mind has been decolonized. Saturdays and Sundays aren't the same for me. I am no longer tied up and running behind a narcisstic, bitch ass, insecure pastor. I no longer submit myself to the musical and spiritual prostitution of the "Church" of the Lord Jesus Christ. I no longer have a Diary of a Church Girl. That cursed book has been destroyed a long time ago. I am free to be me. With my new liberty I'm able to express myself musically, sexually, and socially in a better way. This is why I created this blog, to show all sides of me. I'm not concerned with being mainstream. That would be nice, but life happens that way it happens. How was your 2025 and what do you have planned for 2026?

It's the Friday after Christmas and I've finished unpacking part of my life in a new location. Winter has shown up and Mother is NOT playing games. The sky is overcast while the wind rolls through the calm atmosphere. The Sun has taken a brief respite from duties. I'm not sad. I'm not depressed. I'm mellow. I'm as mellow as I can be. I'm calm. I guess Wellbutrin is doing her job! Ms. Extended Release be on the move. For that, I am grateful. Who thought ya girl would need an anti-depressant? It's cool though. Ms. Wellington as I call my anti-depressant has made the holidays much more tolerable. This Christmas was different. It wasn't as busy or capitalistic as with previous years. This holiday wasn't a traveling holiday season. With US Politics being dystopian and authoritarian af, folks are afraid of the frozen waterboys and the other pieces of bacon. Christmas just a Christmas under the Fword. Despite the current conditions, I and the Professor were able to find joy in this holiday moment even though we don't celebrate. Eggnog, MK Ultra, mixed with horror movies made the holidays gleeful as we walked through the herbal garden of Gethsemane. Not to mention Ya girl also did the Yuletide Tango with the Professor. My Christmas was indeed delightful. A Photo from the Merlin's Edge Photo Shoot The older I get the more I prefer calm holidays, where there's laughter, dancing, and a good game of Spades! Throw in some Karaoke and you might discover a new girl group. In the recent years, I've made new traditions with chosen family and doing something different each holiday. Life brings so many changes. 2025 I saw a new era open up for me as I continue to de-center men, deconstruct from religion, and divest from patriarchy altogether. I even learned more about myself sexually and socially. There have been some discoveries that have NOT been so pleasant, I refuse to let trauma define me. 2025 has not been kind in many areas. For the most part it was one bizarre, chaotic, shitty ride. The difference from past stormy years, is that I have a REAL support system. Friendships ended. I gained new friends. There were loved ones disconnected and some that became ancestors. The memories linger on and some memories better forgotten. Still there is a silver lining. 2025 begins in a few days and there's a new chance for it to get better. I am determined to have a better future on all sides. I recently did some tarot readings for the end of the year and it was favorable. However I recognize there's got to be work in order to make it happen! I'm in the space to do so and I have the right opportunities to do so. I'm getting to happy. Thankfully SAD hasn't kicked my ass. She had me in the first half I ain't gonna lie. I'm going to live in 2026. I'm going to overcome and my ops will fall. Priestess Out!

So in the hours since I posted the first playlist, I decided to post another blog entry since it is Christmas and I have the time. Again these are not in a specific order. I am not comparing or ranking these in any form or fashion. Feel free to comment with your Christmas hits below! Let's Start Shall We Christmas With Brandy-"Christmas Party for Two" (2023) " Christmas with Brandy" hit the scene in 2023 and I must say she hit us gloriously. One of my personal faves would be " Christmas Party for Two. " The Vocal Bible, slays the Holy Christmas classics as well as the more secular, sensual Christmas ballads. It makes me want to know my bae "biblically" indeed. What are your favorite songs from Brandy's "Christmas with Brandy"? A Mary Christmas "The First Noel" -Mary J Blige, ft. The Clark Sisters (2013) "A Mary Christmas" blessed us greatly in 2013. This album featured heavy hitters such as Jessie J, Marc Anthony, The Clark Sisters, and Christ Botti. One of my favorite holiday treats is of course "The First Noel" featuring the Legendary Clark Sisters! For us former Church Kweens and Kids, this includes legends of R &B and Gospel. Did you know that Twinkie Clark's "Sweet Love," influenced Mary J's "Everything? " ( IG: CultureNSound) . Get into "The First Noel" below. What's your favorite cut from "A Mary Christmas"? Luther Vandross-"Have Your Self A Merry Little Christmas" -"This is Christmas" (1995) I must pay homage to the REAL KING OF R&B, the dear ancestor Luther Vandross . I wanted to included another song from his " This is Christmas " Album. One of my favorites from this album is "Have Your Self a Merry Little Christmas." Yes, Judy Garland sang that song for the Gawds, but Luther adds so much more to the song. No offense to Mrs. Garland, but I'm keeping it Blickity Blickity Black! Let me hush and let you listen for yourself!!! What's your favorite from "This is Christmas?" Rest Well, Luther Vandross!! Nat King cole "The Christmas Song" 1961 What can I say about Nat King Cole? The father of great Natalie Cole? He set a standard which made it necessary that he is Nat KING Cole. An Icon in Jazz and Christmas history I present his 1961 rendition of "The Christmas Song" written by Robert Wells and Mel Tormé (1946). Nat King Cole's version of "The Christmas Song" was selected for preservation in the united states National Recording Registry as being " culturally, historially, or aesthetically significant " (Brett Zongker et al " Library of Congress News Room: newsroom.loc.gov . " It has also charted on the Billboard Hot 100 in the top 10 on January 7th, 2023. With that being said "Merry Christmas to You..." Whitney Houston "Do You Hear What I Hear" - "A Very Special Christmas" (1987) In 1987 Whitney Houston, The Voice, donated her recording of the classic "Do You Hear What I Hear," for the "A Very Special Christmas" benefit album. "A Very Special Christmas" served to benefit the Special Olympics. ( https://www.whitneyhouston.com/hu/track/do-you-hear-what-i-hear/ ). Whitney Houston's vocals reaches the heaven hosts, announcing the birth the baby Jesus. Can I get an amen? Family, let's behold in love and veneration Whitney Houston's "Do You Hear What I Hear?" Venturing into some Gospel Treasures Kirk Franklin & The Family "Jesus is the Reason for the Season"- Christmas (1996) Christmas wouldn't be melanated without a little Gospel. It was the 1990s and Kirk Franklin and the Family had rocked the world with "Why Do We Sing?" and Kirk Franklin had already got us with "Joy" featuring the Georgia Mass Choir. Welp We can all remember singing " Now Behold the Lamb " and the legendary "Jesus is the Reason for the Season." Can I get a "Glooo ooooo ooo ooo oo ooo o o o o ooo RIIII AAAHHHH!!!" Wait? Too Much? Okay I'll let them singing it!!! Durand Bernarr- Extra Stankin' Christmas - "Christmas Shopping in July" (2012) We gotta add our Cousin, Durand Bernarr to the list! This veteran released an "Extra Stankin' Christmas" in 2012 and is in my holiday rotation. Why? Because "I can't stand them lines, that's why I do my shopping in July." It's very much why be bothered with the hustle and bustle of capitalism when we can just buy it right then. He has a point ya know! Run DMC - "Christmas in Hollis" from "A Very Special Christmas" (1987) Let's briefly journey back to 1987 with Run DMC and the "A Very Special Christmas" benefit album. Now this song samples Clarence Carters "Back Door Santa," "Frosty the Snowman," "Joy to the World" and other Christmas Jingles. The title references the neighborhood in Queens where the groups members grew up. Check out "Christmas in Hollis" Ari Lennox "My Favorite Things" (2022) Ari Lennox put her glory all up in and through Rodgers and Hammerstein's classic "My Favorite Things! ." Popularized by Julie Andrews in the Broadway Classic "The Sound of Music," "My Favorite Things" has been covered by Luther Vandross, John Coltrane, The Supremes, and Mary J. Blige to name a few. Let's reminisce on our favorite things. Which cover is your favorite cover? The Peanuts Gang- Christmastime is Here from "A Charlie Brown Christmas" (1965) -The Vince Guaraldi Trio "A Charlie Brown Christmas" aired on December 1965 creating a standard for Family Christmas movies. The Peanuts gang taught us some morals of kindness and illustrated race in it's ways ie Franklin. However in my Black household, Charlie Brown and the crew were embedded in my musical journey. The Vince Guaraldi Trio exemplifies grace when it comes to "Christmastime is Here." What's your favorite Charlie Brown, Christmas song?

Merry Christmas, Royal Priesthood!!! Christmas 2025 is here and right now, I'm feeling sentimental. I send my love to all this holiday season. This year has been one for the books. Through many ups and downs we've made it Christmas. To keep things light I'm going to make a Christmas Playlist of Some Favorite Christmas Tunes. They are in NO particular order. Comment with your favorite Christmas tune or any I may have missed. The Temptations- "Silent Night" (1980) A Black Christmas is NOT complete and cannot start of properly without the Classic, Holy, Soulful "Silent Night," provided to us by Motown's historic, iconic male group "The Temptations ." While some households are starting the holidays with the colonized version of "Silent Night," A Black househould is playing this in commemoration of not only the Birth of Christ, but family, peace, and joy, even though we might be a big dysfunctional. The Temptations' "Silent Night," is a must on your Christmas Playlist. The Temptations intitially released a more traditional version on their 1970 Christmas album "The Temptations Christmas Card." However in 1980 The Temptations recorded a more churchy, soulful. This version from "Give Love at Christmas" is the version prevails. Although The Temptations' "Silent Night" is on of the most played holiday songs, it has never charted on the Billboard Hot 100 as of the time of this blog post. Whitney Houston "Joy to the World" from "The Preacher's Wife" Soundtrack (1996) First off, Rest in Peace to THE VOICE, Whitney Houston! Her legacy still reigns among us! No holiday is complete with the the whole "The Preacher's Wife" Soundtrack. Let's admit Georgia Mass Choir, Kirk Franklin, Babyface, Faith Evans, et al mixed with the anointed voice of God, Whitney Houston conjured a soundtrack that reigns supreme in the Black Christian household. Whitney Houston and the Georgia Mass Choir delivers an up-tempo, sanctified offering of "Joy to the World." If you've seen the movie then you'd know Black joy of that scene! Whitney Houston & Richard Smallwood "I Love the Lord" from "The Preacher's Wife Soundtrack (1976/1996) I would feel rather remiss if I didn't include this gem of " I Love the Lord. " With Richard Smallwood's foundation laid in 1976 with The Union Temple Young Adult Choir , Whitney takes the torch and presses it further in this stirring, holy spirit lead hymn of worship! Clips have surfaced online showing how God herself showed up during the making of "The Preacher's Wife." Donny Hathaway "This Christmas" (1970) Another Black Christmas Anthem is none other than the late Donny Hathaway's "This Christmas . " This Christmas hit was intentionally set to be a Black Christmas anthem!!! According to and Andscape Article via Ric Powell Donny Hathaway set intentions on "This Christmas" being a Black Holiday Anthem that would stand the test of time. Check out the full article here . I have even partook of His Duet of "This Christmas" with daughter, Lalah Hathaway , who is a musical Goddess of her own!!! "This Christmas" is a song that encompasses the focus of holiday season: Love, Peace, Hope, & Joy. TLC-"Sleigh Ride" (1993) TLC: (pictured left to right) T-Boz, Left Eye, Chilli Another Black Holiday Classic ( Yes Gen X and Millennials I said classic) that's a must have is TLC's "Sleigh Ride" from the compilation album "A LaFace Family Christmas." This album featured "The Christmas Song" with Toni Braxton , "Silver Bells" With a Few Good Men and some Christmas goodies from few other familiar artists (Click the underlined links both bold and regular font). Many holidays since '93 has this good bop been in rotation. A regular fave for us true TLC fans. Sounds of Blackness -"Soul Holidays"(1992) Growing up in my household the Gospel, inspirational group "Sounds of Blackness" was a staple in my household. Ya Girl grew up singing their hit "I Believe" with legend Ann Nesby on the lead. "Sounds of Blackness" dropped "Soul Holidays" in 1992 on the album"The Night Before Christmas-A Musical Fantasy." The music video is full, family imagery and of course that good old Gospel sound. I'll let the video speak for itself after the punctuation! Eartha Kitt "Santa Baby" (1953) I would be totally disavowed by community if I didn't add the Iconic Eartha Kitt's Christmas signature " Santa Baby . " Penned by Joan Havits and Philip Springer, this tongue in cheek hit, has stood the test of time. The lyrics paint the perfect picture of a free spirited young lady who wants all of the material things for Christmas or perhaps a sugar baby enchanted by her benefactor. This sexy Christmas tune is for all of us Divas out there!!! Destiny's Child "8 Days of Christmas" (2001) Before the Christmas Playlist Brigade comes and eviscerates my holiday spirit, I must include "Destiny's Child" and the up-beat "8 days of Christmas." Beyoncé, Kelly and Michelle served up Christmas as only they could on the Album "8 Days of Christmas." Doesn't it feel like Christmas? Luther Vandross "Every Year, Every Christmas" (1995) The dearly beloved ancestor, Luther Vandross and Richard Marx but their stamp on "Every Year, Every Christmas." Hailing from the " This is Christmas " album "Every Year, Every Christmas" is on that list of Christmas songs that have you longing for that one person that you've had to part ways with. This song will touch the heart and pull those heart strings of those who my find themselves romantically alone for the holidays. However, this is a staple that only Luther Vandross could croon with such elegance. The Emotions- "What Do the Lonely Do At Christmas" (1973) The Emotions perfectly captured the one aspect no one talks about: Being alone or lonely during Christmas. For those are single or going through a major change in relationships, Christmas can be a difficult holiday to get through and it makes one question "What do I do for Christmas." This song is only for that brief moment where we feel left out of the holiday spirit. Remember this is just a list. Ella Fitzgerald -Frosty The Snowman (1960) Ella Fitzgerald's "A Swinging Christmas" has brought me joy every since I was a child. Growing up in a musical household, exposed me to so much more than just Gospel and R&B, but jazz has a must have in my househould. It's something about the grace and eloquence that Ella Fitzgerald possessed. Her touch to the classic story "Frosty the Snowman" brings forth an unmatched Christmas spirit. Mariah Carey "All I Want for Christmas"(1994 Christmas playlists would Not be complete if I did not include the Queen of Christmas herself, Mariah Carey. Since 1994 Mariah Carey's "All I Want for Christmas is You," has helpd it's on right along with Bing Crosby's "The Christmas Song." Need I say more? now I know that there's a lot of other songs I could've included, but I didn't want this post to drag on...Drop in the comments your go to Christmas song. Merry Christmas Fam!!!

This week marked 8 years of being sober from cocaine and meth. I can't find enough words to express how liberated I am and how happy I am to live a sober life. From an attempt to embarassing moments, ya girl has come through some heavy shit!!! You may be wondering how it happened. Well I had tried cocaine in my early 20s but I knew it wasn't for me. However, in 2015 I was in a toxic relationship and my ex was sending me through it. It had gotten so bad that I went to Atlanta with a friend to be a complete whore since my ex and I were not having sex. While in Atlanta a guy offered me some coke and meth aka Tina and for 2 years I struggled with addiction. I had my moments where I would be clean for a week then I'd go right back to it. Things took a turn one night in Atlanta on my birthday when I made an ass not only of myself but those who loved me. It was at that point that I knew that I had to get clean. The interesting party about ALL of this was that I was active in ministry. I was functioning around my toxic family and going to work like it was nothing. I was going to work high. I was going to church geeked up. No one knew. It was on December 15, 2017 that I knew I had to get it in gear and live a sober lifestyle. Here I am 8 years later sober. Addiction is a beast that can be hard to tame. It can hold you like a spell from Maleficent herself. I keep pressing through sobriety for those who lost their battle with addiction. I keep pressing for loved ones that have dealt with and are dealing with addiction. I keep pressing for conditions that will reduce and ultimately end addiction. Addiction is a disease. No one chooses to be addicted. Life and circumstances cause people to be addicted. If you or someone you love or know are battling addiction please reach out to the National Drug Hotline at https://drughelpline.org and 1-844-289-0879. For additional help in crisis you can dial 988. With Love, Priestess

The holiday season has arrived and Christmas is one week away. Christmas decorations have been placed in such decorative array. Winter weather has arrived creating the perfect scene for a Hallmark Movie. Families are making plans for yuletide gatherings and the gift prepping has begun. While some families are the epitome of Hallmark Movie families, there those of us resemble the most Dysfunctional family you ever want to meet. As a result of the dysfunction we've chosen our peace by going no to low contact with our relatives. The estrangement is warranted due to lack of boundaries, abuse, family dynamics and more. Due to estrangement, the holidays can be a strain and a trying time. I have been estranged from my paternal side of the family since 2022. Do I like it? Hell no. Is it necessary? Yes! Toxicity and I do not get along at all, therefore I refuse to allow my family to bring toxicity. Not only did I go no contact due to toxicity, but after all it is my deadbeat father's side of the family. Although I spent most of my life celebrating the holidays with that paticular side of the family, I found it necessary to create new traditions for myself during the holidays. Those new traditions include spending time with my chosen family, performing music, or doing community service. Since 2019, I've spent time with friends, chosen family, and certain people from my paternal side. Since my grandmother passed in 2020, the family has fallen into the abyss of dysfunctional comfort. My grandmother loved the Christmas holidays and December is her birthday month: this makes it harder for me during the holidays. For those reading, you may be wondering why I'm sharing this and why am I writing this blog entry. I'm glad that you've asked. Estrangement has given me a new strength. It has shown me my own survival screens without my family. Stay with me and I'm going to tell you how to survive the impending holiday! If you've gone no contact with your family due to the toxicity and dysfunction that has affected you then this guide will help you. Survival tip #1: Recognize You did nothing wrong: You didn't ask to be brought into this world, nor did you ask for the family that you got. You are not to blame for how they treated you. They are the problem. Sometimes our toxic families will attempt to guilt trip us for going no contact. Protecting your peace and protecting any children you may have or partners is important Survival tip #2: Stand on Your Boundaries: Do not Back down from the boundaries that you've set with your loved ones. If they reach out to you during the holidays, you have the option to respond or block. If you choose to respond, do so in a polite, yet firm tone that enforces your boundaries. If you are no contact, then ignore the messages and block them. Unfortunately some family members do not respect boundaries and it is your duty to keep those boundaries in place. Survival Tip #3 Lock down Your Social Media: During the holiday season, toxic family members will attempt to reach out via social media or use social media as a tool to silently lurk. If you're good with social media and can catch them trolling, you should block them. Do not acknowledge them at all. They are looking for the attention. Now if you have removed them from social media and made your account private, estranged relatives may try other means to contact you to inquire as to why they can no longer view your social media. Survival Tip #4: Create Your Own Traditions: Just because you grew up with a specific tradition doesn't mean you have to keep that tradition. The holiday season is a time to celebrate however you want to. You are not required to hold on to your family's tradition. You can treat yourself to the movies. You can gather your chosen family and friends and go to a local bar or have your own Christmas dinner. Checking out neighbor decorations could be a great tradition. It is up to you. Survival Tip #5 Embrace Your Chosen Family: Your chosen family are the people you hold dear and accept you for who you are. This could include the non toxic relatives, your closest friends, and those in your friends circle. Your well-being is important so you want to be around people that are safe spaces and value your humanity. Survival Tip #6 : Take Care of Your Health: Do not neglect your mental or physical health. Take time to speak with your therapist. They will be a guide to help you navigate the holiday while estranged from family. Yes, those feelings of grief will arise. Take the time to grieve, but do not let it over take you. Treat yourself to a spa day or find your favorite holiday movie and spend time refreshing yourself. I would also advise journaling. Whenever find yourself ruminating, remind yourself why you cut those toxic family members off. Celebrate your new found freedom. You deserve it. I hope these tips help you in your journey during this holiday season. Estrangement can bring a host of emotions, but you can manage them. You are stronger than you think. You've cut off toxic parts of your life, and that takes a lot of strength in itself. You are loved, you are worthy, and you are enough! Remember to live, love , and be free. Happy Holidays.

I love being trans! I love all there is to be a woman! I love my expression of femininity. My womanhood has existed since the time I came out of my others womb. Even though they tried to beat it out of me, I am still the woman they tried to deny! I stand firm in my transness. I have no choice. Yesterday was Transgender day of Remembrance and my mind and heart venerates those who have been snatched away from us due to hatred and abuse. I wonder if there will be a better tomorrow. How much longer do we have to fight for respect and human rights? I don't have the answers, but I know what me and my Transgender community are fighting for! I don't take my transness for granted! My Transness has saved my life!!! My transness lays bare every time that I step out of my house! My transness cannot be defined. I give definition to MY expression of transness. Every Doll, Action Figure, and ENBY Fairy are different our expression. That's the beauty of the Gender Spectrum.

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Yannick doing yoga for full photoset go on over to http://patreon.com/cwtpriestess If you're new here then you should know something about me. I am a nudist and I love doing yoga naked. Yoga has been included in myself care routine for 7 years. It is a practice that helps me meditate and center myself. Yoga also helps me self regulate. Before I get into my Jorney into yoga, let me explain to the newcomers what yoga is. Yoga is a Sankrit word that is translated as "yoke" or "union." These translations mean to unite bind together. Yoga creates a sacred union of the mind, body, soul and universal consciousness according to www.yogabasics.com . Yoga can be traced back thousands of years to the Upanishads, aa collection ofyogic text dating from around 800 BC to 400 AD. For the sake of this blog post and reading time I will refer to www.yogabasics.com for a more in depth understanding of Yoga. Now how did I get into doing Nude Yoga? Well I'm glad that you asked. It started in 2018 during a search for nudist community. I had freshly moved to Washington, DC and I craved friendship beyond the church world. I had been in DC for several months and had been to a few nudist parties. However, I wanted a new adventure in my nudist life. Since nudism isn't sexual and I can get sex at any time, I wanted to further my naked experience. One December Wednesday I decided to finally venture out and scout for new naked experiences. Since I was in several nudist groups, I decided to peruse the events sections to see what I could find. I also looked up nudist groups on Meetup and couldn't find anything. I started to get frustrated with me search and I decided to try Craigslist with what I could do given the site had changed. After frustration, I went back to Facebook and searched nudist events and happened to find a Naked Yoga and Potluck event for that coming Saturday in Silver Spring, MD. Before I even stated my interest, I knew this was what I wanted to do. I had never practiced Yoga before nor had I even practiced Yoga in the nude! I've gone naked socially, at resorts, and beaches, but never had I did Yoga in the nude. I knew that this was going to be a new experience for me. Before I RSVP'd I took a peek at the guest list and as usual it was predominantly white, but thankfully I saw a few melanated faces. I also want to be in a space where I see people that look like me and those who I can indentify with. This doesn't just go along racial lines, but this goes along gender lines. At the time I identified as non-binary since I was only a few years into my transition. I must admit, a bitch was nervous as fuck to be around a group of white men in this body. Not only that potluck and food was involved and I am NOT a fan of potlucks. Nothing against people, but I was always taught that you can't eat from everyone's table. However, I did look at the rules of the naked yoga and rhetoric used in describing the event. I knew then that I would be welcomed. After my inspection I began to prepare myself mentally and emotionally for this naked yoga session. Since it was only Wednesday, I had to contain my excitement for the upcoming naked Yoga Session. Each day my excitement grew and I couldn't wait until I got off from work and out of church so that I could attend this Yoga Session. Well Saturday arrived and I was finally free to prep for the Naked Yoga session. I had picked up some wine and a pie on my way home from church. I wanted to make sure that I didn't go to a potluck Yoga event empty handed. I picked a nice pink moscato and a nice apple pie. It wasn't a home cooked meal as I was in a complicated living situation. Since it was cold as fuck in DC that winter I layered up and braved the cold in my 1995 Toyota Camry. I had some of my favorite tunes blasting as I prepped myself for how this nude yoga class would go. I really wanted it to be a safe space. I wanted to make some long standing friendships, however I didn't put all my eggs into one basket. The Nude yoga class was held at one of the host's home. It was a lovely home indeed. The foyer was beautifully decorated with Christmas decor. From the foyer was a set of steps that lead to a beautiful entertainment space. This space felt comfortable and festive. The Christmas lights and decorations added to the allure of the anticipated Yoga. Of course before getting to the potluck and naked yoga section, one had to disrobe. Ya Girl in Cobra Pose Our lovely host, guided us to the makeshift clothing closet, which was another seating area before going to the assigned nude yoga, potluck space. I placed my bag, clothes, and other belongings in my assigned area. Our items were guaranteed to be safe and secure. Any infraction or disrespect of the rules would be an immediate ban from the Naked Yoga event as well as any other events put on by the host. I made sure that I was respectful and made sure I was respected. Once I entered into the event space with the other participants, I saw more melanated people and a couple of other non-binary people. I introduced myself to everyone including the host. After the pleasantry exchange, I headed to enjoy some of the potluck. I partook of some good cake, a pasta salad and a few meatballs. I didn't want to overeat in anticipation of the Yoga session. I did not want to be naked and farting in someone's face during yoga. After the potluck, we had a brief intermission were we chilled and let our food settled. We did a bit of an icebreaker, where we stated our name, where we're from, age, and hobbies. The icebreaker was awesome. I discovered I was one of 3 musicians in the room. We all talked about music, the upcoming grammy's, and networking. After all the chatter and ice-breaking, we headed into the Yoga session. We started the naked yoga session. The instructor or Yogi (practitioner of Yoga) started us off with a nice relaxing flute interlude to help us center and ground ourselves. The atmosphere was calm. It was as if we were transcending a spiritual plane as we did deep breathing exercises. With each breath I felt my body relaxing in anticipation of the yoga session. Here comes the first few poses. With each pose, the Yogi, guided us through each pose advising how to place our hands, feet, legs, and how to modify. As we unified the elements of our being, I felt lighter, yet energetic. Before I knew it we were ending the Yoga session and saying Namaste. After the Yoga session, we still sat around a chatted for a bit more, some indulging in the available hot time and after Yoga drinks. I chatted for a while longer and then I dressed myself and headed home.  Once I got home I immediately went to sleep. The next morning, I had to work. I woke up more energetic than I had been in months. I knew then, that Yoga especially naked Yoga was going to be a regular staple in my life. Even through periods of instability I still managed to do some type of yoga even if it was just watching certified, authentic Yogis on Youtube. However due to circumstances and going further into my transition, I stopped going to the naked yoga class and started practicing alone. I do intend on the future on finding a transgender Nude Yoga class. I absolutely love doing yoga naked. What is your favorite form of yoga?

On Thursday November 29, 2012, I decided to go in for my routine STI Testing. It was a normal thing for me to do every six months since 2010 after a tumultuous relationship. I got up put on some nice slacks, prayed and headed to Spartanburg, SC for my test. I arrived there for my appointment. I walked into the clinic, and checked in with the receptionist, "Diane." The woman's tone was nice and professional. She was welcoming and reassuring. I took note of that understanding how people felt about getting tested for STIs and HIV. U=U was new on the scene and I had just began understanding it better. I knew that it was no longer a death sentence as it was decades prior, however I didn't know how it would affect me. In order to prepare, I couldn't hours prior nor could I have chewed chewing gum as I was to take the mouth swab test. I knew the routine so I felt comfortable. I felt that all would be well with my results, but I recognized that I had been having unprotected sex, so I was prepared for anything. Well time for testing comes. The administrator, who I'll call Tania, welcomed me in with the same tone and care as with Diane. Tania tested me on my knowledge of HIV. There were some things that I had wrong. Some things I had right. Tania gently re-educated me and then prepared me for the testing process. Tania explained the swab test and how the process would go in the event that I was positive. As she, explained the test and the possible process, my mind went to a dream I had months prior in June. In the dream, I had went to the clinic and I found out that I was HIV positive. I immediately woke up and "rebuked" it as I was doing the Christian thing (Thank I'm an atheist now). I started to prepare my mind for that possibility and how I would react. Then came testing time. I went into the testing area. I washed my hands. I took a deep breath and I started to think of my favorite song by the Clark Sisters " You Brought the Sunshine , " to settle my nerves. Tania swab my mouth and sent me back to her office to wait 20 minutes for the results to come back. While we waited Tania and I discussed life aspirations, goals, how my day and week went. I don't recall all of the conversation as the time flew by. The conversation was soothing and up lifting. Tania didn't discuss what I would do in case I was positive. I appreciate that. She didn't stoke unnecessary fear or stigma. The timer went off and Tania went to check my results. Here came the moment of truth. The next words out of Tania's mouth changed me for ever. I braced myself for the results. Tania said to me "I have your results. You have tested positive. This could be a false positive so we are going to refer you to the health department where they will do a blood test." I was strangely calm as I replayed the dream from June in my head. I prayed, but I felt sad, disappointed, rejected, and scared. I fought my emotions and recognized that I would be okay. So many thoughts filled my mind. "Who Would Love me? Who would want to kiss me? What would my family say? I'm going to lose my hair. I'm going to die." So many things but, Tania's voice cut through the noise. Tania asked me how did I feel. I responded with "I'm ready to go home and eat," to lighten my own mood. I continued "I'm scared, but relieved. I know that I'm going to be okay." I didn't believe it. Tania also made sure that I didn't feel like harming anyone or myself. I assured her that I'm okay. I also had to give a list of people that I had been with during this process. It felt so invasive and I didn't want anyone to blame me for anything. With that I scheduled my appointment for the blood test and I took my voyage home. I stopped by Boots and Sonny's Hamburger and Hotdog restaurant and got my favorite chili cheeseburger combo meal with a root-beer. I ruminated on how I would tell my best friend and what that would look like. I expected people to walk away from me. However, that proved to be a lie. The next week I had the blood test. They tested me for other STIs which was more thorough. My new counselor's were a big help mentally and emotionally. They re-educated me on living with HIV and the medications. I knew I was on my way. I did end up telling my friend, my Pops, and my Donor concerning my status. I stupidly told my aunt due to her husband passing of complications from AIDS in the 90s. That's another story for another day. My best friend didn't leave me and I was able to have a healthy sex life. Of course I've been rejected due to my status and I experience HIV stigma But I am still here 13 years later. I live with HIV. I am NOT HIV. I am free and I am continuing to fight. I fight on for those who didn't survive the AIDS epidemic. I fight on as this administration threatens healthcare and HIV funding. I fight on for Life. I am strong. HIV LIVES MATTER! !!

It's Holiday Season 2025. Another year of families gathering together, community service, and random acts of kindness. This week was Thanksgiving for most people. However I don't really call it thanksgiving. I call it Indigenous People Day as well as Acknowledge the Day of Mourning for Indigenous people. Although I am with my family, I acknowledge what this day really means for a people who were on this American Land First. I don't take that lightly. I stand in Solidarity with the Indigenous People as they stand in Solidarity with the Black Community! For this 4th Thursday of November, I spent time with the Professor and Her Family. I was anxious about meeting her family for the first time as it meant a lot to the Professor. I enjoyed the fellowship and the dinner. I also went to my first wine tasting which was a joy. This was awesome. It was one of many holidays in which I was away from my toxic ass family. Normally the holidays are tough for me, but this year was much better. I guess that's what's happens when you choose piece. Well that's all I am able to write. I am currently walking through the garden...I'm out, Priestess